The days in my life since I last posted has become a complete blur... no image stands out... its the kind of time where there's happy and there's sad... there's so much happy and there's so much sad... and there was this ragged favorite term of people that are not okay... the I'm okay, okay? part...

but as for being really okay... i really don't know... what you can say as a grand slamma jamma uber problem has come to my life at a time that i thought i would really enjoy.

let's start with what the adults say as pettiest of all...

the well known cliche of man...

LOVE let's just say I've seen enough... then a certain someone messaged me on fb and said to me something about stopping what i'm doing but honestly baby... i'm not doing anything...

next...

what all people like me (hard people) experience....

SCHOOL

because of increased social life and "extra-curricular" activities... my grades are at their all time low...

third, I guess i've always had this problem so...

i don't feel one of FRIEND... she's not really good for me... she is so self-centered... she is so hard... she, there are times when i want to let my problems out but with her i don't have time, and with that I have my Tandem, girlie... thank you girlie btw

and last is the common FAMILY...

well lets just say its really not okay... there's this mistake (you guess right) and because of that everyday is a fight and side comments of my mom to my dad that if your not in the family, you wouldn't realize but yeah... i hear it alright... are they both not thinking you know why for my dad and for my mom, to do that in-front of us is really unfair and awkward... because honestly, i just want to forget about that... and mom... gosh... maybe when i have the courage... id tell you guys...

i know there are bad times, but there are good times too...

1. i know how to play billiards...
2. i have many friends...
3. i still have passing grades except in physics or as we call it physhits... lol
4. were always out of town even though things are like that... so its still some 'kinda fun...
5. i have friends that really listens to me...
6. having a sort of someone i can talk to is really helpful... maybe soon that someone will be special

so that's it... a blur of black, white, red, yellow, blue, techni-color, neon whatever...

with that i would like to leave you with this phrase...

I'm okay... maybe...

   

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cremated and kept in the house...

i wanna be home..

and

quite frankly i dont wanna decompose

maybe if im a ghost i would endure 5 hours of burning

rather than

months of decomposing